Thursday, December 17, 2009

come Thou long awaited Emmanuel

How sweet are the days when I truly yearn for Christ and His return. May they be more often, may they be deeper. May they compel me to seek, find and enjoy the Lord in joy and love.

come Thou long expected Jesus
born to set Thy people free
from our fears and sins release us
let us find our rest in Thee.

Come Thou long awaited Emmanuel!
Come Thou long awaited Emmanuel!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


My soul waits and longs and hopes for change. Change in the worldly sense has always quickened my heart in excitement; I grow easily bored with circumstances and as I find myself in the midst of one milestone, I am hasting to look to the next one ahead. This has always been the case for me. Whether its going away to college or leaving to study abroad or finishing college hockey or getting married, I continue to look with excitement to the challenges and newness that change brings.

I have seen the capacity for both sin and righteousness to spring from my love of change. As Paul says to "be content in any and every situation, whether living in plenty or in want" (Philippians 4:12), I know I must guard against the discontentedness that is rooted in my joy and hope being in my circumstances and not my Savior. I must also fight the desire to escape present circumstances that are uncomfortable and painful, yet are intended as discipline and santification for my soul. As Job proclaims in the midst of calamity, "Though He slay me, yet will I hope in Him...Indeed, this will turn out for my deliverance" (Job 13:15-16), I long to believe steadfastly in who our God is and the promises He has given us, that I may remain faithful in the midst of trials and be filled with a joy that is found in the presence of God and not the presence of wordly comforts and peace.

I have also seen the good that desire for change brings. It allows me to be open-handed with the present things God is giving me. It allows me to see a vision of what could be and what is to come and to pray with expectation of what the Lord will do. It gives me zeal for the present, knowing that so much must change in me that I might reflect the Lord more fully and remain faithful in any and every circumstance.

This is the change that the Lord is giving me a vision for right now- the change that He promises is His will for me. Sanctification. That I will not remain the same, stuck in my sin, hindered in spiritual progress by the same things over and over again. That as I follow Him, pressing deeper into His Word, being renewed by His mercy and grace morning after morning, and being compelled by His Spirit that dwells within, He promises change. Change of the heart and soul to reflect the Son. Change of the inner person that is more sure than any circumstancial change could be. Sanctification. He promises "that we all, with unveiled face beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another" (2 Corinthians 3:18). That the things I am excited yet feel unprepared to do right now- be a godly wife, love younger women with wisdom, be gracious in relationships, be humble and servant-like, are the product of beholding the glory of God now. Fixing my eyes on Him now. Tasting and seeing the goodness of God now that changes the soul to be more like Jesus to equip me for the future things He has for me.

I pray that we would desire to look more like Jesus, knowing that only He can change us, and that pursuit of His glory is for our joy both now and in the future.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.

23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.

24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."

25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;

26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.

27 It is good for a man to bear the yoke
while he is young.

28 Let him sit alone in silence,
for the LORD has laid it on him.

29 Let him bury his face in the dust—
there may yet be hope.

30 Let him offer his cheek to one who would strike him,
and let him be filled with disgrace.

31 For men are not cast off
by the Lord forever.

32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
so great is his unfailing love.

Lamentations 3:21-32